I did it!

April 5th 2009 is the start of the Spring Session for Hands on Healing massage therapy certification classes. I have been carrying around the application for 7 months. I have been thinking of this as a trade career for years, ever since someone in high school told me I had great hands. Today I wrote the check and put it in the mail. I'm actually doing this. Going back to school. Taking a step towards something. Scary as hell and yet I feel like I have accomplished something.

The universe can't steer a parked bus. Even if I'm heading on a very long detour, I'm heading somewhere.

Now if I could only get my taxes done......

Blog Fun!

I redesigned my blog.

Just because I could.

Update for a New Year

Okay okay okay. I know it's February. Well, almost the middle of February. And I should have written more by now. I know that! Does it make a difference that I have been writing, just not here? I've finished the lyrics for three songs and written two magazine articles. Have also started flushing out the graphic novel, the stage musical and the fiction book I have dancing around in my head. That's a lot of writing. As well as journaling every day. Whew!

- Christmas is over. I'm happy and sad. Sad because it is my big money maker for the year. And I get to sing for a living with people I love. Happy it's over because I no longer have to get face family traditions and gathering where my father is noticeably absent. So now I have 10 months before that again.

- New Years Eve was great. I drank, played Flip Cup, cheered in 2009 and went home. It was a good night and I woke up the next day feeling healthy and ready to take on the year.

- Road trip with my US Air Force friend. An interesting ten days. Flew to Florida, getting stopped in Atlanta for 8 hours due to a flight cancellation. Drove through four states in a day. Then took two days to drive through Texas. (What the hell were they thinking when they mapped that out?) Ate crap Mexican food in El Paso. Crossed the Arizona border twice. Stayed in Vegas for three days and didn't do anything but sit around the hotel room with my friend and her parents. Then was the driver straight up to Idaho with the flu. Not quite sure why I signed up for this trip. Am still trying to figure out what I was supposed to learn.

- And now back to temp hell. Ta dah!!

Concerns me to no end that I have no life focus. I'm a Sag. I know that I am inconsistent and change my mind all the time. I like change. No, wait..... I LOVE change. I love new days with full schedules and challenges. Meeting up with my friends and going somewhere. Watching complete seasons of my favorite show instead of sleep. Inconsistency is my way of life. However, that doesn't pan out well in the workplace. I don't know where to go and what choice to make next! And it's not for lack of trying. I think about this all the time.

Here is just a small sample of the job ideas I have for myself: (in no particular order)
- own my own production company
- own a vineyard in Napa
- be a veterinarian in a small town with great houses
- own a boat and travel the world as a photographer
- write for a newspaper
- work with Elite Racing to plan running events
- a hospice counselor
- physical therapist
- sommelier
- novelist
- relationship/sex therapist
- massage therapist
- wedding offciant
- edit movie trailers
- voice overs and jingles
- sing in lounges
- work with the circus
- train animals for the movies

The list is longer. And more varied. And there isn't a clue in my body of which is the way to go.

So as I sit here at yet another temp job, typing away and filling my hours so they'll pay me, I know there is something out there for me. I know there is a path and a decision and a direction. I am just missing the focus.

Oh look- a butterfly!